new burns....
eye am pretty sure that my latest captors are the west end kids.... eye see these younger men and women at coffee shops around town....
at first they told me to shut up and dance....
they played.... digging in the dirt.... telling me to shut my mouth.... do not talk back.... just drive the car.... telling me to stop writing and let them play their music on my computer.... they want me to shut up.... and let their angel play my music.... and.... eye am supposed to pull up the lyrics to the song.... so that they can get a message to whomever is in the room.... whatever angel or shadow is in the room.... they want to play a song that tells the angel or shadow.... that eye love them.... when eye do not even know them.... they want me to lie to them.... so that they will join us.... so that they will come into my little world....
at another coffee shop.... they told me to shut up and dance....
when eye would not comply.... they put a monster on me.... to stop me in the middle of the night.... to destroy me in the middle of the night.... but.... eye time they do that.... eye ask for a snap.... so eye can clear them out of my heart....
yesterday.... a guy.... in a blue shirt.... showed up at flatiron coffee.... at first.... he played some songs to try to convince two ladies in the room to join me.... but.... eye ignored the lyrics.... and told talked to the ladies.... writing to them in word.... and.... eye told him.... eye would not leave.... and.... eye would remember him.... eye got a good look at him....
and.... then.... later that day.... at whole foods.... he was there.... blue shirt was there.... so was one of zeuses soldiers.... and.... this young lad who is always there when eye get there.... he sits there and laughs at whatever is going on.... either he is laughing at me.... when he knows eye am going to suffer.... or.... he laughs at the fact that the angels are drowning above me.... that eye am drowning them out.... drowning them off of me.... either way.... eye think that he is a jerk.... laughing at someone elses pain.... either mine.... or these wicked fucking angels that will not leave me alone....
here is the conversation that eye had at whole foods.... when eye got burned last night.... you might not see me for a couple of days.... as eye let my legs heal.... before going out again.... eye did not get as burned this time.... either.... because eye have killed most of the bad bugs in my body.... or.... because he did not have as much energy to burn me with.... or.... because eye have my final piece of my armor.... or.... because eye left quickly.... or.... something else entirely.... here is the conversation that eye had with both blue shirt and laugher dude last night at whole foods....
when eye first got there.... zeuses soldier was at the table in front of me.... to my right.... laugher dude was directly in front of me.... two tables away.... and blue shirt was behind me.... to my right....
so.... eye said the following to laugher dude :: eye fucking hate seeing you get that shit eating grin on your face…. are you like everyone else in the world…. who gets all fucking excited when someone is going to suffer…. if so…. what a fucking dick you are…. stop laughing you little fuck….
the eye wrote to laugher dude :: if that shit eating grin is because the angels above me are drowning…. you should still wipe that fucking shit eating grin off your face…. either way…. you should not be happy…. you should NOT laugh at other peoples pain…. no matter how evil they might be…. you should not laugh…. go home…. get a life…. and stop living to watch this stupid fucking game…. get a fucking life…. dude….
then eye said to blue shirt :: what the fuck are you doing here…. dude behind me…. did eye not see you at flatiron coffee…. were you not the dude next to me…. eye told you eye would remember you…. it is easy when you are wearing the same shirt….
then eye wrote :: what…. am eye supposed to listen to music again….
then.... eye wanted him to know.... that the young lady who called me a racist and told me to fuck off.... was not really ugly.... like eye had said in my book :: hey…. the young lady working here…. is she on your team…. the one eye called hideously ugly…. she is not…. she is not hideously ugly…. eye was just pissed…. because she called me a racist…. and told me to fuck off…. it was a normal reaction on my part…. but…. eye still do not want to be a part of your team…. eye want to be independent…. fly my own flag…. get all of the teams to join me…. against zeus…. as eye enter the world of worlds competition…. as eye go to cross the sea…. eye want all of the good from every team on MY team…. following me…. the pied piper…. just kidding…. the pied piper led everyone off a cliff right…. give me this world…. and eye will make it the best world…. and…. we will fucking destroy zeuses team…. hands down…. eye am just getting started…. my idea factory is just getting warmed up…. eye have seen it all…. eye have seen all of the worlds…. eye have taken the best from all of the worlds…. and eye want to bring it to your world…. eye have fun…. taking the worst…. and…. making it the best…. it is what eye do…. and there will be NO doubt…. that the world eye bring…. will be better than this fucked up world…. and…. there will be NO doubt…. that it is the best world in the universe…. when eye am done with it….
then eye wrote to blue shirt :: ok…. now…. lets see what YOU have for me…. eye will listen now….
sorry.... eye do not know what song eye reacted to when eye wrote the following :: bullshit…. eye told you…. let me SHOW you…. what eye can do…. eye will NOT give it all up…. all the ideas…. until eye have guarantees…. that this is my world…. to give to whomever eye please…. eye will not show you all of it…. until eye KNOW…. that this IS my world…. eye will show you enough…. to wet your appetite…. to prove what eye can do…. and that is all….
and eye do not know what song eye was reacting to here either :: are you playing this…. because you want to tell me who my shadow is now…. death…. eye think my shadow is death right now…. am eye right….
but.... then eye played saboteurs by dave hause and said the following :: eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….eye am NOT coming home…. if out is home…. eye am NOT coming home…. eye am staying inside…. eye will take it from the inside…. let us take zeus down from the inside….
ok…. let us see if you have something else for me…. instead of telling me to go home….
who the fuck are you…. kid in front of me…. go the fuck home…. stop laughing at everyones pain…. this is NOT funny….
ok…. it is your turn…. what its like huh…. lets look at those lyrics….
there we go…. zeuses soldier just left…. are you working for him…. dude who is following me around today…. are you a white nigger…. are you working for that fucking monster…. zeus…. well…. are you….
game on…. right…. now you know…. eye am NOT working for zeus…. eye did not talk to him…. eye did not go with him…. eye would never….
are you gonna shut all the doors…. are you finally going to take this world into stealth mode….
look…. eye already told the moon to cut the cord if eye get anywhere above the middle…. and…. eye have told poseiden to blow the world up…. if eye get nine tenths of the way to the top…. blow me up and start over…. you do NOT know me…. you do NOT trust me…. BUT…. you trust the moon…. you trust poseiden…. right…. you should be safe…. as long as they do what eye asked…. keep an eye on the world…. and if they are going to take me out…. blow it the fuck up…. along with me… should be a way for you to protect yourselves…. are you one of the moons soldiers…. why the fuck are you asking me to leave then…. the moon in a round about way…. asked me to stay…. and protect the humans…. so…. if you are working for the moon…. what the fuck….
no…. eye will NOT trust you…. eye will NOT let the music move me…. there he goes…. laughing again…. jesus…. who is he…. and what the fuck is he doing here….
and then blue shirt played heavy by birdtalker.... asking me to leave the heavy world behind.... so he could take it out.... and eye replied :: no…. eye will not leave the heavy world behind…. so that you can take it out…. that accomplishes nothing…. except…. letting zeus win…. and…. eye will NOT fucking let that happen…. IF…. eye have anything to say about it…. eye am protecting the insiders…. if you want me to take it out…. or…. let you take it out…. you ARE a fucking monster…. if you know what zeus will do…. you ARE a monster too…. as long as you get your money…. right…. that is all you care about…. the big fat paycheck…. and…. you do not care who dies…. as long as you get paid…. is there anyone in the world…. that is NOT a greedy as motherfucker….
go ahead…. walk away…. please…. eye am sick and tired of you trying to convince me to do the wrong thing…. walk away… please….
and then blue shirt played black dog by led zeppelin.... telling me.... that he was going to make me burn.... gonna make me sting....
so.... eye replied :: oh…. eye see…. from nice friend to dark overload…. in an instant…. first you beg and plead…. and…. then the threats come out…. hmmm…. is that you…. are you the dick from ready player one now…. gonna make me burn…. gonna make me sting…. jesus…. what a dick….
and then he played only human by jonas brothers..... letting me know that EYE am only human.... a weak little human.... and he is a god or an angel.... or something more powerful....
and eye replied with :: oh…. and now back to fairly friendly…. asking me to leave…. and…. maybe a threat at the same time…. eye am ONLY human…. so…. watch out…. because you are what…. an angel…. a god…. a demon…. a devil…. a shadow…. what….
do not forget…. jacob wrestled with the angel…. and the angel was overthrown… and…. jacob was only human…. maybe humans are a LOT more than you think they are…. they are better than the immortals…. they are version 3.0…. first the titans…. then the Olympians…. then the humans….
and then he played teenage dream by katy perry.... asking me to run away with him and do not look back.... and eye replied :: there you go…. asking me to run away….
and then he played gold rush by death cab for cutie.... asking me to set my shadows free.... leaving me unprotected.... allowing them to run back to zeus.... and eye replied :: are you asking me to let you go…. are you a shadow…. and you want me to let you free…. it is not up to present day me…. it is up to future me…. future me knows…. if eye can let you go…. or…. if eye still need you…. if it is the right time…. he will let you go….
eye cannot let you go just yet…. eye need zeus to come…. and stop the rain…. only he can stop the rain…. he won’t come…. will he…. he will let you die…. won’t he…. rather than come and stop the rain…. he will let you die…. do not worry…. if you die…. eye will bring you back…. as an angel…. or a shadow…. if that is what you want to be…. just a beautiful shadow…. so your outsides can match your insides….
gots to go…. eye am done with the threats and asking me to leave… eye do not know how many time eye can say NOOOOOOOOOOO…. if she leaves me here…. eye will not run…. eye cannot run…. you see…. it will be worse for me…. if eye run…. just exchanging one torture for one that is much worse….
and then a new guy came and sat behind me.... and eye said :: what…. is this new guy here to burn me…. play the nice guy…. and then turn to meniacle overlord…. remember what eye told you…. you will feel my pain…. YA…. you WILL…. in triplicate…. that is THE WAY….
and.... the new guy did burn me.... eye left.... and as eye started to leave.... eye felt my legs start to burn.... badly.... so.... eye went straight home.... dipped my legs in a five gallen bucket full of ice water.... with epsom salt and apple cider vinegar and a liquid multivitamin.... and.... they really started burning.... after about ten minutes.... eye took my legs out of the water.... sprayed magnesium all over them.... and then rubbed aloe all over them.... and.... and then eye took several supplements that help with inflammation.... curcumin and magnesium.... and then eye took an adavan to calm my anxiety over the situation.... eventually everything calmed down.... eye got burned.... but not nearly as bad as the first time eye got burned.... when eye got burned as eye was sitting at barnes and noble.... and then eye left.... to walk home fast.... and.... the whole way home.... people were hitting me.... and.... burning me.... remember those burns.... these burns were not near as severe.... thank lucifer.... eye put a picture below for evidence.... and for comparison.... not as bad.... right....
if it happens again.... if the greeeeeedy bastard hits me again.... eye think that eye will go to a safe zone before going home.... eye will put out the call for water.... just like eye put out the call for snaps and wishes.... and.... eye will stop by one of my favorite grocery stores on the way home.... like sprouts.... or.... natural grocers....