hate vs faith....

so....  eye think eye am starting to understand this wicked game....  eye think that eye pick up an angel and a shadow....  and depending on which team that they think that eye am on....  one of them protects me....  and the other one tries to kill me....   eye think....  yesterday....  eye picked up faith....  an angel....  and hate....  a shadow....

when eye came into this world....  eye came as zeuses soldier....  eye came in as part of the black parade....  and eye was wearing black....  eye was dawning the black flag....  the banner of the black team....  the black uniform....  and....  eye might still be wearing black....  because she has me cursed.....  zeuses angels have me cursed....  eye gotta clear my name....  have EYE come back yet....  because....  when eye come back....  you will know....  you will know....  you will know....  have eye come back yet....

zeus is a real bastard....  he is my boss....  and eye cannot quit....  so eye am hiding out in the basement....  of the game....  eye am hiding in the basement of the game....

eye think that eye have switched sides by now....  there is a war between the insiders and the outsiders....  with zeus....  the leader of the outsiders....  and....  eye have no idea who is the leader of the insiders....  eye am going to take zeus down from the inside....

eye think that the shadows might be sided with zeus....  at least some of them might be....  because....  when eye was part of the black parade....  they left me a phantom....  a shadow....  to lead me....  to protect me....  from gods angels....

but now....  eye think that the roles have reversed....  and the angels are protecting me....  the angels are my guardians....  and now faith is on my side....  and hate is trying to kill me....  eye think that eye am at the end....  at the end of the game....  that eye am finally at the bottom....  that eye dug down....  dug down....  dug down....  and finally found faith....  and faith is bad ass ninja chick....  just like in the video....  and....  the battle....  is between faith and hate....  and....  eye am at the gate....  eye am standing at the gates of hell....  because hate is always at the gate.....  and peace....  is on the otherside....  this is....  the last stop....

now....  here is the rub....  eye do not think that faiths heart is in it....  if eye know who faith is....  eye have never been able to connect with her....  she is a cool kid....  and....  eye am an outcast....  the cool kids have never accepted me....  eye am weird....  eye will always be weird....  eye will always be lame....  eye will never be sane....  eye am a freak....  thanks for loving me....  so....  here is the rub....  faith is a cool kid....  she would rather be protecting someone else....  another cool kid....  like thor....  rather than me....  rather than a freak....  so....  her heart just in it....  but this world has her chained to my side....

but....  here is the good thing....  hate and eye get along....  we are more alike....  her and eye....  we had a good conversation yesterday....  so....  hopefully....  her heart is not in it either....  hopefully....  she does not want to kill me....  so....  she will do her job....  she will try to kill me....  but....  hopefully....  her heart will not be in it either....  and she will not want to kill me....  as much as she wanted to kill the others....  will your misery and hate kill me to....

well....  you do not know....  how much misery loves me....  how much misery loves the lucifer in me....  and....  only the love in me....  can conquer hate....  only the love in me....  can calm the tides of war....  oh....  and did eye tell you....  eye AM your overlord....  eye can calm the tides of war....  with the hammer of the gods....  and a threshing oar....  do eye have peace and trust with me now....  will they be able to win the day....  inspite of all my losing....

sounds like....  eye am in it now....  sounds like this is going to be a LONG road....  because dave says....  that hate is SO deep....  sounds like eye have a long way to fall....  

eye think that hate likes part of the plan....  eye told her....  about my plan for non-profits....  for a specific non-profit....  and she liked it....  faith....  might take a little more convincing....  eye have no idea where faith is coming from....  does she care....  eye can tell that hate cares....  does faith care.... about....  a better world....  bringing about a better world....