the sun....

the sun sent one of her soldiers to talk to me tonight....  my favorite sunshine soldier....  eye am confused now....  eye am confused by everything....  and eye am gonna need some guidance....

he talked about having lyme disease....  and his treatment messed him up....  eye am confused....  is he telling me to cancel my appointment with the functional doctors next week....  who happen to treat lyme disease....  as well has work with mental health....  is he telling me that they will not help me....  only hurt me....  or....  is he decieving me....  trying to get me to cancel my appointment....  because not having a psychiatrist will leave me vulnerable....  eye am confused....  what do eye do....  can someone give me guidance....  please please please....  there eye go begging again....  you are gonna learn....  love begs....  love definitely begs....  

eye do not think that he was telling me that eye have lyme disease....  because eye really do not seem to have any of the symptoms....  and....  if eye do....  eye am taking ALL of the right natural antimicrobials to kill it....  already....

eye gotta tell you....  eye have a lot of story lines running through my head about the sun....  one....  that she is part of a decievious plan to set up poseiden....  another....  that she lied about something....  and that is why he is down here....  and then....  eye have this other story line....  that she is in on it....  that she is in bed with zeus....  

and then....  eye have this entirely different story line going through my head....  that eye asked here to come to this world....  that eye asked her to come help me save this world....  that....  she is one of my candidates for queen of this world....  

so many thoughts....  so many story lines....  and eye just do not know which one is the truth....  if only eye could wake up....  that would make things so much easier....  eye think.... :-)