poison....

she and eye want different things....  different strokes for different folks....  she wants to make movies....  to make money....  then she wants to take me home....  she promises....  it will be the last time....  ya....  right....  if she take me home....  the vicious cycle will start all over again....

we want different things....  she wants to make money....  eye want to save the world....  eye want to end the war....  eye want to end this wicked fucking game....  

so....  it is time for me to poison myself again....  because....  something in the orange....  is telling me....  to never go home....  eye know.....  eye know....  that is NOT what it says....  but....  that is what EYE am saying....  please....  poison my immortal spirit....  leave my mortal spirit alone....  and poison my immortal spirit....  if we are heading north...  please turn my headlights around....

what are the angels telling me right now....  that they have options....  that they have other options....  fine by me....  do NOT threaten me....  eye am trying to get rid of you....  we WANT different things....  eye see you roll your eyes at me....  eye see the disgust in your face....  when eye say some of the shit that eye say....  there is NO way for me to know if you want want eye want....  and....  eye highly doubt that you want what eye want....  so....  we should part ways....  sooner....  rather....  than later.... 

did you set up this morning....  the whole shadow thing....  with the blood draw....  to tell me....  that eye NEED you....  eye do NOT need you....  eye can figure this out on my own.... 

even god knows....  eye HAVE to do this on my own....  eye have to break free from your lies....  the only way you know how....  the only way you know how to convince someone to join us....  is....  to lie to them....  to tell them....  eye love them....  eye think they are beautiful....  eye will give them everything....  

and....  eye know....  you are the ones....  putting everyone eye do NOT want to see....  in front of me....  time after time....  and eye am tired of it....  you think....  oh....  it is so funny to harrass him....  look how funny we are....  well....  it is not funny anymore....  eye do not want to be alone together anymore....  cut me off....  eye am a maniac....  cut me off....  because....  eye am NOT going home....  

here eye go again....  down the road.... the only one EYE have ever known....  on my own again....

they are telling me....  the first time was a trick....  the first time that eye died....  eye was living in a bad dream....  it is time for me to survive....  without any tricks....  without any pieces keeping me alive....  

so far....  you advice is not helping me cure myself....  so far....  the only good advice eye have gotten....  is from the arian....  the only one....  who truley sees zeus for the monster he is....