making movies....

many years back....  eye had a date with an angel....  eye think that she was a brown angel....  because of something she said to me in a text....  we were supposed to go to a cooking class for our second date....  and she was late....  she was almost always late....  eye hate that about her....  and....  since she was running late....  eye waited for her at a coffee shop....  and....  since she was running late....  eye felt that eye had reason to switch things up....  now....  mind you....  eye was manic at the time....  pretty fucking manic....  so....  when she showed up at the coffee shop....  eye asked her if she was up for an adventure....  she kinda gave me a strange look....  but then said.... ok....  and eye said....  we have to go somewhere else tonight....  we cannot go to the cooking class....  because someone is making a movie of my life....  and eye need to bankrupt the company....  eye need to ruin their financing....  and they are supposed to film our date tonight at the cooking class....  so we need to go somewhere else....  she....  eye asked her if we could go somewhere else....  she reluctantly agreed....  and so....  we hopped in my car.... and headed north....  eye said....  let us head to lyons....  and....  we could either go to the fork....  or this bbq restaurant....  she chose the fork....  good call....  

on the drive up....  she started asking me why eye thought my life was in a movie....  and eye tried to explain to her everything that had happened to me in the last five or ten years....  eye am not going to fill in the details right now....  maybe eye will come back and fill this in later....  either way....  she was not buying it....  everything that eye explained to her....  she came up with a reason that it was not a movie....  we argued about it almost the whole way up to the restaurant....  when we got to the restaurant.....  they were actually having a special event....  a prix fixe meal....  we lucked out....  and....  eye THINK we had a good time....  eye had a good time anyway....  and they had the best fries....  a fancy restaurant with the best fries....  imagine that....  after the date....  eye took her back to her car....  and she gave me a hug....  and left....  that might have been our last date....  any guesses why.... 😊

so....  the point of taking you through all of this....  is that....  eye have thought that my life has been in some kind of movie....  for many years now....  because people seem to know things about me....  like someone is watching me somehow....  and of course....  because of the lyrics....  

eye mean....  the lyrics tell me that she is making movies....  and....  they just keep making them....  with my life....  and everyday....  she comes knocking at my door....  and she asks me permission to blow everything up....  to start everything over....  eye say....  this time....  lets turn the page....  lets NOT blow everything up....  this time....  lets shut this movie down....  so....  we can put some pressure on the angels....  to come forward.... to come out of hiding....  because they want to use the money to build themselves castles....  and eye want to use the money from the movie....  to create a basic income and a trust to fix the world....  so....  help me shut this movie down....  stop watching it....  please please please....  help me shut it down....  and....  start reading the book....  eye believe that the movie is false....  it only shows the bad things that eye do in my life....  the angels are trying to stop me....  so they are only showing you my bad side....  so....  start reading the book....  start reading the truth....  get the whole story....  from the book....

eye gots to tell you....  eye keep trying to help these angels out....  and every time that eye do....  somebody tells me to stop....  somebody want them to pay....  for what they have done....  eye wish eye knew all that they have done....  then it would all make more sense to me....  oh ya....  are these the angels that have been torturing lucifer for thousands of years....  are these the angels from lucifers dreams....  that have turned into greedy ass demons....

one day....  eye will....  today....  eye am stepping out of the movie....  numb of all the pain....  it is sad....  eye know....  but one day soon....  eye will be back on my train....  out of the movie....  but....  back on the train....