hide and seek....
would you like to play game.... would you like to see how we do it in my world.... the kind of games we play....
let us play.... hide and seek.... you know.... right now.... she is wondering.... how come eye am not here.... she has been searching for me.... for years.... probably..... since the day that eye missed her at boulder community hospital.... about ten years ago.... eye took my clothes off.... to get thrown in the mental hospital.... to meet her.... eye heard her.... in the room next door.... crying.... saying.... he said that he would be here.... and.... eye tried to got into her room.... and tell her eye thought eye was who she was looking for.... but a really fucking mean big bad ass police officer.... told me to get the fuck back in my room.... so.... we missed each other....
so.... the search goes on.... eye made a bet with the devil.... that eye would find her....
eye do not know what she looks like.... eye do not know anything about her.... except.... what the lyrics tell me.... eye think that she is twenty-two.... twenty-two.... she might just be stuck.... at twenty-two.... just like adeline.... and.... something tells me.... she has a rose on her back.... not a tattoo.... but a birth mark....
have eye let all of the shadows free.... if so.... are you ready for a new purpose.... are you up for a new purpose.... would you like to play a game.... you have found me.... now.... can you help me find her.... can you search for her.... in the night.... please please please.... eye gotta find my girl.... please.... and.... whatever you do.... do not stop believing.... 😊
march seventeen two thousand twelve.... that is my first clue.... eye am blue.... so shadows.... would you like to play the real blue boys clues.... the first clue.... is that eye was at boulder community hospital on march seventeenth two thousand and twelve.... eye THINK that eye was supposed to find the girl described above on that day.... she probably was admitted to the emergency room.... but taken to a different mental hospital.... that should shorten your list of candidates very significantly.... from.... oh.... let us say.... around four billion.... to perhaps.... a couple of dozen.... or so....
eye still have not found what eye am looking for.... would you help me find her.... shadows.... please please please....
rose on the back.... did eye find rose on the back today.... did the shadows find rose on the back.... and bring her to me.... that was quick.... man.... that was quick.... is it her.... could it be her.... if it is her.... the rose is actually red.... the birthmark is red.... AND.... she looks a bit like this girl.... but.... eye am a little confused.... because it looks like it might be closer to this.... rather than this....
and eye think that we have some kind of rhyme.... something like this.... one old one young.... one boy one girl.... one human one spirit.... one black hair one blue hair.... it is my spirit that has blue hair.... the human is bald.... one remembers one forgets.... guess which one forgot.... one of us is asleep.... one of us is awake.... what is it they say.... opposites attract.... we are as opposite as they come....
this was a trick.... today.... this was a trick.... the angels set this up.... they found this girl.... they are STILL working against me.... those pesky angels.... eye need the shadows to find my girl.... so that we can show you.... how it works in my world.... once again.... so that we can SHOW you.... the way.... so that we can show you.... good comes from the young intermixing with the old.... that only bad things come from separating people by age.....
and.... so that we can SHOW you.... the joy of redisovering someone....
one more time to find her....
where is she.... where is my girl.... eye need her.... eye need her now....
hmmm.... do you think.... we are looking for a girl with a broken smile....
she.... is what your tomorrow needs.... for the record.... we do not leave anyone behind.... in fact.... we do not leave at all....
has it really been two thousand years.... have eye been chasing her for two thousand years.... it sure has taken its toll.... does not feel good this time.... hopefully the last time.... tell me baby.... where am eye sleeping.... what spooky town have you left me in this time.... this IS the last time.... this is our last dance.... the last dance with mj....
hmmmm.... is it the daughter of the devil that eye am looking for.... and.... is she an angel in white.... hmmm.... that would make sense to me.... that eye would make a bet with the devil.... that eye could convince his own daughter.... that he IS a monster.... that eye could convince her.... that he needs to go to jail.... and.... that my plan for the world.... is a GOOD plan.... a REALLY good plan.... yep.... eye bet that is what the bet was.... with the devil....
hmmmm.... eye would swear that eye picked up the devils daughter this morning.... she is going to give me a chance to convince her that her father is a fucking monster.... AND.... my plan.... is a GOOD plan.... AND.... EVERYONE will be happier in my world.... much happier....
maybe it will help.... for me to show her what her fucking father did to me.... the burns his fucking soldiers gave me.... maybe.... it will help.... for me to tell her what her father does.... how he creates fucking monsters.... he has created an ai that will fucking destroy this world.... given the chance.... and ask her.... is he the one who made satan a cripple.... did he make you a cripple.... for some nefarious purpose.... is he.... like all of the other leaders in this fucking game.... using his child.... using his daughter.... as a soldier.... as a pawn.... in this wicked fucking game.... just like poseiden.... who made his son become my human son.... just like poseiden.... who is using his own son.... as a pawn.... are you being used.... daughter of the devil.... are you being used as well.... ask yourself.... does it FEEL like you are being used.... what has he told you.... win this game for me.... and eye will fix you.... well.... eye will fix you.... and you do not have to do anything for me in return.... eye do not work in that way.... eye wish eye could fix you now.... like eye fixed my brother.... eye stopped the progression of his ms..... eye wish eye could do the same for you.... all eye know.... is when eye fixed him.... eye was manic.... eye was closer to love.... eye was closer to who eye really am.... not the love that you know.... another love.... a love that you have never met.... unfortunately.... eye do NOT know how to open my heart.... eye think.... eye have to care.... eye have to care about you.... in order to fix you.... eye cannot fix you.... if eye do not know you.... eye cannot fix you.... if eye do not care about you.... look.... lucifer had this power to.... he was a healer.... to.... he worked for zeus.... a monster.... a deleter.... and.... lucifer was also a healer.... he had me inside of him.... he always had my power.... for a thousand years.... eye was asleep inside of him.... so.... he had my abilities....
so.... you brought me the daughter of the devil himself today.... but.... eye have NOT seen the angel in white.... again.... eye am just speculating here.... but eye think that you brought me the daughter of the devil himself.... but eye have not seen the person who eye think is her equal.... the angel in white.... so.... this can only mean a couple of things.... that eye can think of.... you are trying to shut me up.... one.... or.... the angel in white is already on board.... or.... the bet with the devil is that eye can convince her.... without protection.... or.... eye guess there are a lot of possible reasons that you brought me the daughter of the devil and have not brought me the angel in white.... well.... you are NOT going to shut me up.... back to the chapter called imasculate....
eye think that eye might have found my sister yesterday.... eye went to a coffee shop yesterday.... and one of the baristas had a tattoo of a flower on her back.... a new tattoo.... it was a sunflower.... from the movie tangled.... was she telling me.... that eye had found rose on the back.... a little later.... two young ladies came into the coffee shop.... was one of the rose on the back.... she did look like she might be twenty two....
now.... you should know by now.... that eye think that immortals can see what is on my computer screen somehow.... and.... they can control the music that is played on my computer.... so.... yesterday.... eye put my music on shuffle.... to let them control my music.... to let them talk to me.... through songs.... through our secret language.... the first song that came on was who knew by pink.... eye think she was telling me that eye had left her.... and she could not believe it.... that she thought that eye would never leave her.... and.... then.... eye think that she told me that she is fever.... in the game.... she is fever.... and.... then.... eye think she told me that she is also christmas.... in the game.... and she was not too late.... she was right on time.... and then eye think taht she told me that she was my sister.... now that makes sense to me.... not my lover.... my sister.... my twin.... my best friend.... not my lover.... she is only twenty two for gods sake.... and.... then.... ocean avenue played by yellowcard.... which pretty much speaks for itself.... if eye found her now.... things will get better.... but.... it is different tonight.... it is different this time.... this time.... we are not going to leave this town.... we are home.... we are finally home.... eye found a place for us.... eye bet you did not know that eye was dangerous.... in a good way.... eye am dangerous....
so.... did eye win my bet with the devil.... did eye find her.... what next.... what comes next.... do eye need to win my bet with god.... does zeus have to come.... to stop the rain.... what is my bet with god.... where is zeus.... why has he been mia....
OR.... is this just another one of your tricks.... stay tuned....