the bad guy....
do you see now.... why eye do not want to be the bad guy anymore.... when you shut down these wicked games.... many many people think that you are the bad guy.... you make a lot of enemies.... one guy told me.... once a dirtbag.... always a dirtbag.... today....
oh.... eye have no intention of watching the world die by the way.... eye think that was someone else.... and.... eye took his place.... just like lucifer.... just like blue.... just like love.... eye have taken the place of the guy with the big black boots and old suitcase to.... eye have taken all of their places....
faith is right.... eye did call her out.... and.... virginia would be right to.... if she told you eye called her out.... and.... now.... eye am trying to get rid of all of them.... to let them go.... because.... eye cannot have any obligations.... eye think that they all had dreams of being queens.... the kings and queens of promise.... and living in big castles..... and.... eye have to be the one to take all of that away from them.... eye may have deceived them.... but.... eye did NOT know that eye was deceiving them.... if you can believe that.... eye REALLY am asleep.... and.... eye have as little knowledge of where this ship is going next as you do.... which is why eye keep telling you to protect yourselves.... let me build the trusts.... keep the bombs.... in case.... eye am not who eye think eye am.... in case eye am not your benevolent maker....
and then there are the stars.... people who have been given very nice lives because of this game.... through this game.... and.... eye have to take that all away from them to....
but.... the system is wrong.... the game is wrong....
if eye understand things.... angels get to be angels by birth.... through blood and name.... they did not earn their position.... and.... that is not right.... that all has to change....
and.... if eye understand things correctly.... the stars.... did not earn their stardom.... they just had enough money to pay for an experience.... they were sold an experience.... at the expense of others.... at the expense of the humans....
and.... if eye understand things correctly.... this wicked game rewards the wicked.... it rewards bad behavior.... and punishes the good.... it punishes good behavior.... and.... that all has to change to....
a lot of immortals are living very nice lives.... at the expense of many many others.... including an entire race.... or.... species.... at the expense of the humans.... who.... do not even know that they are being forced to live in the past.... in the dark ages.... and.... who.... do not even know that they are being used.... and.... this wicked game.... your nice lives.... comes at the expense of many many other immortals who have been made slaves or endentured servants....
can you not see that this has to change....
if you will bear with me.... you will see.... that.... even though you will be giving up alot.... even though some of the immortals will be giving up a lot.... eye plan on making the pie bigger.... and better.... and.... if you will bear with me.... eye HOPE.... that one day.... even the stars and the angels and the gods and the devils and the demons..... will thank me.... eye know you cannot see it now.... eye know that it is hard to see.... how could eye give you a better life.... when you were going to be kings and queens.... you were going to have subjects and servants.... how could eye possibly make your lives better.... please.... please.... please.... bear with me.... give me a chance....
and.... eye HOPE one day.... all of you will forgive me for this.... and eye will not forget.... the evil.... eye do not give a shit about.... eye do not care if they ever forgive me.... but.... all of the good people.... which includes many of you angels that eye am kicking off right now.... will hopefully forgive me.... eye see you.... as you are leaving.... and.... many of you look to me like very good people to me.... only zeuses soldiers looked evil to me.... many of them.... most of them....
eye think that you will see.... that this is the loneliest place in the universe.... and.... you will see.... that you were all like frogs.... in a cosmic jaccuzi.... oblivious to the fact that your world was heating up.... that your world became a prison.... that your world.... is the worst world to live in.... and.... we decended to the darkest of prisons.... to set all of you free....
you have given this human body every disease immagionable.... you gave me h pylori and bacteria and fungus and yeast and mold.... and.... you did NOT tell me eye had it.... now.... eye have atrophic gastritis and pernicious anemia and hyprochlohydria and hypothyroidism and maybe cancer.... and.... my gallbladder is gone....
you have tortured me.... at least five times that eye can think of.... prison.... three times in the mental hospital.... and once when eye was on the wrong mental health drugs for THREE fucking years.... and.... if you want to count my fucked up gallbladder operation and hernia operation.... that makes seven times.... you made me lose over fifty pounds.... not once.... but twice now.... eye lost it.... and then you forced me on zyprexa.... which made me gain it back.... and then.... eye lost it again.... all while my metabolism was slow.... eye had to eat less than fourteen hundred calories and work out twice a day.... to lose the weight.... you have isolated me.... and.... eye am pretty sure that my apartment is full of mold and whatever other toxic chemicals.... and.... you have taken away my air conditioning....
and.... if that was not enough.... eye think that my immortal spirit has all kinds of disease.... diabetes..... and.... perhaps.... the most recent disease that you have given me.... is fibromyalgia....
what do you want from me.... eye cannot do it all.... eye am willing to do whatever it takes to heal my human body.... eye am willing to continue eating like a fucking rabbit.... eye am willing to continue taking supplements and healing this human body....
but.... eye cannot do it all.... eye cannot heal this human body.... and this immortal spirit.... at the same time.... eye have no fucking clue how to heal fibromyalgia.... eye need freedom now.... my immortal spirit needs freedom now.... you have to let it go.... you must let my immortal spirit die.... you must set me free.... you must come untethered.... not only for my sake.... but for the sake of everyone.... you must let my immortal spirit go....
it does NOT mean.... letting go of your dreams.... IF.... you are a good angel.... it does not mean.... letting go of your dreams.... eye do NOT want you all to go home.... if you are evil.... yes.... eye want you to go home.... eye want you to leave us all alone.... eye want you to stop haunting this world.... but if you are good.... eye want you to stay.... eye want you to stay.... and.... help.... in a different way.... not by making fucking movies.... as far as eye can tell.... that was all about you making money.... for yourselves and your owners.... at MY expense.... eye want you to help.... eye want you to learn how to live in the world to come.... eye want you to help US bring about the world to come....
what do you want from me.... you can save my mortal soul.... you can save my mortal body.... but.... you have to let my immortal soul go.... you have to let my immortal soul die.... IF.... eye have any chance of turning this around.... and.... once you come untethered.... eye still want you to keep coming around.... eye have seen many of you letting go.... eye have seen many of you leaving me.... and.... many of you ARE beautiful.... most of your ARE beautiful.... and.... it IS me.... eye am a freak.... SO.... will you let go.... AND.... will you keep coming around.... do not give up on me.... eye will NOT let you down.... at least.... eye think.... eye will NOT let you down....
let us figure out a different way to communcite.... let us figure out a way to actually talk.... this is NEVER going to go our way.... if eye am going to have to continue to guess what is on your mind.... if you let go.... have you only lost the night.... can you win the day.... can you win in the light....
you will only lose the night.... if you let go.... why do you not make the day.... about ideas.... a battle of ideas.... certainly.... you cannot be afraid of a battle of ideas with me.... eye am human.... imperfect and human.... eye am also.... a babbling fool.... certainly.... you cannot be afraid to cross wits with me.... little old me.... you are immortal.... you have been around.... for thousands of years.... maybe more.... why.... are you afraid.... of little old me.... a little old human.... who has only been around sixty years.... whos wisdom is only sixty years old.... your wisdom is older than me.... and.... whos circuits are blown.... and then.... eye have the symptom.... of being a mere human being.....
what do you say.... should we close all of the holes.... fix all of the holes in the roof.... and.... rebuild that bridge.... if you let me go.... the will HAVE to rebuild the bridge.... AND.... we can start.... we can all move forward again.... we are SO far behind.... moving forward should be fun....
and.... you want money.... you want to make money.... you all are from different worlds.... worlds FAR ahead of this world.... bring your ideas here.... bring your knowledge here.... bring your technology here.... you will make enough.... to have your castles.... to have your fortunes.... you just need to put on your thinking cap.... step out of the box.... and think.... eye just paved the path for you cats and angels and gods and demons and devils and shadows to get rich today.... so.... let go of me.... and go.... live your life....
we created this world.... behind all of the other worlds.... so that you could learn.... a new way.... a better way to make money.... through SHARING of ideas.... through SHARING of technology....
and.... once you help me wake all of these humans up.... you are going find.... that being human.... is better than being immortal.... in every way.... we made them better than you.... in every way.... they seem weak.... eye seem weak.... the seem less advanced.... eye seem less advanced.... ONLY.... because eye am not awake....